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From Blackout to Brilliance - Dispatch 11 Years Later

Scroll down to see photos and a writeup from my SOBER experience at Saturday's Dispatch concert at Merriweather Post Pavillion. As the title of this post says - I've come full circle. From blackout to brilliance. This might just be my future memoir title. <3

I have all the feels. @dispatch at @merriweatherpp was rainy, cold, and unforgettably AWEsome in the truest meaning of the word. 💫 💫 💫 💫 I was the band's lead volunteer via @propeller.la. Dispatch is a very socially conscious band and they support many nonprofits doing wonderful work. We learned how to be active bystanders and safely intervene in situations of sexual harassment or abuse concerts for @callingallcrows. We sold gorgeous @nalgene water bottles benefitting @reverb_org - in an effort to reduce sing le use plastics at music venues. We educated our fellow concert goers on @nativegiving. 💫 💫 💫 💫 And as you can see, we met @bradcorrigan and @chadwickstokes!!! If all that wasn't enough, I had to take the opportunity to tell Brad my 30 second story. Of how 11 years ago on July 13th, 2007 their @thegarden show was the last night I ever drank - and how I just celebrated 11 years on July 14th. Brad hugged me, gave me a high five - and a natural high because I was freaking out (on the inside). 💫 💫 💫 💫 My crew was truly phenomenal. We powered through monsoon level rains and wind and did our work happily and proudly. We got to experience @rayezaragoza and @nahko_and_mftp. Omg their violinist 🎻 is out of this world. And his hair! But I digress. 💫 💫 💫 💫 Dispatch's set was unreal - and to top it off, I won top volunteer status and the chance to see the encore from the photo pit (hey @michaelraymondsmith!). My face hurt from perpetual smiling. 💫 💫 💫 💫 So did my Dispatch experience come full circle? 💫 💫 💫 💫 Fuck yeah, it did. / 🎤 #dispatch #dispatchband #merriweatherpostpavilion #mindfulness #selflove #boozefree #selfcare #meditation #buddhism #sobriety #mentalhealth #witchy #sherecovers #theuniverse #theyogalife #thesoberlife #gratitude #recoveryrocks #recovery #soberAF #recoveroutloud #thesobrietycollective #soberissexy #alcoholfree #holistichealth #sobertribe #sober #Tt

Dispatch - not just a band, but a symbol of my recovery.

Dispatch - recovery

If you know my story, you'll know Dispatch plays a big part. [If you don't know, read more here.]

Suffice it to say, the last night I ever drank (and of course, I drank to the point of blacking out) was in New York City at Madison Square Garden, the night of July 13, 2007. Dispatch hit the stage and the crowd went wild. At least, I think they did. I know I did.

**Hours of crying, screaming, drunk babbling, running and wandering aimlessly about the lobby of Madison Square Garden, breaking down, being scooped up by paramedics who whisked away to a hospital**

Seven hours later I came to in a hospital bed wearing hospital socks and feeling what I can only describe as a witch's brew of fear, terror, shame, guilt, bewilderment, and shock. This was the last time, I promised myself, and somehow I meant it.

**Fast forward 10 years, 11 months, and 13 days**

I never thought I'd have the opportunity to see Dispatch live again, mostly because I heard rumors they split up, did their own thing. That was that. Or so I thought.

This year not only have they reunited, but they've partnered with Propeller LA to have fans volunteer at shows across the country. Through a volunteer application, I shared my story of why it was so important for my experience to come full circle. To go from seeing them last in a drunken stupor to this year's show date 11 years later really does feel like a crazy miracle. I'll get to show up and help the community, in cause and action.

And I'll get to experience a band I love so much completely sober, paying homage to who I once was and I've since become.