Leanne Franks

Name: Leanne Franks

Age: 33

Location: Melbourne, Australia

Sobriety date: 1/13/2019

Creative niche: Designer, Entrepreneur, Event Organizer

If applicable to your story, substance of choice: Alcohol

Sobriety story in a nutshell:

Looking back my drinking had always been erring on the side of problematic. I wouldn’t consider myself an alcoholic but I was someone that always wanted more. I’m what you’d call a ‘gray area drinker’. On the outside I was outgoing and comfortable in social situations. But inside I was constantly worrying where the next drink was coming from. Social situations were never about the company and all about the booze. So I cut out the middle man and resigned myself to night after night alone on the sofa drinking my weight in red wine. Drinking had morphed from a social activity to something that kept me isolated.

After several attempts at kicking the booze I committed to my sobriety on the 13th January 2019. I’d spent years stringing together a month here, two months there, but I never made it past the 3 month mark. I now see that the key thing missing from my sober toolkit was community and connection with other non-drinkers. Nothing beats the support and encouragement of the sober community.

I found that community initially through social media. Social media was invaluable to me in those first few months. When I wasn’t quite ready to go public about my problem drinking I set up an anonymous account on Instagram, followed as many sober accounts as possible and discovered a rich and diverse online community. However after a while I began to crave that IRL interaction and after trawling the internet for sober events in Melbourne, Australia (where I live) I came up with nothing. I still enjoyed socialising with my friends but didn’t want to resign myself to just hanging out in bars with a warm OJ. I felt lonely in these situations - like an outsider looking in on a world that revolved around alcohol.

I couldn’t find my tribe - so I created one. I decided to set up Rise Revolution, a meet up group for sober events in Melbourne. So far we’ve had a ‘Boozeless Brunch’, ‘Hangover-free Hike’, ‘Brunch Book Club’ and ‘Smashing Sobriety Break Room’ event. I’m also in the process of organising Melbourne’s first ‘Sober Supper Club’ complete with paired non-alcoholic drinks.

I’ve met the most amazing people through doing this - and i’ve even added a few fellow organizers to help me build and grow the Rise Revolution community. This is sorely needed this side of the world. For many sober people i’ve met in Australia they think the only option is to go to AA - and if you’re a ‘gray area drinker’ this may not be the right path for you. My hope with Rise Revolution events is that we create a space where sober people can come along to connect with like minded souls in a genuine way and the sober curious can experiment with the prospect of socialising without the need for alcohol.


Top 5 Wellness Tools:

1. Sober Community

2. Meditation

3. Talk Therapy

4. Podcasts

5. Exercise


 
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Connect with Leanne and Rise Revolution

website: riserevolution.co
instagram: @theriserevolution
facebook: facebook.com/theriserevolution

Facundo Lucci

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Name: Facundo Lucci

Age: 29

Location: Philadelphia, PA

Sobriety date: 3/18/18

Creative niche (art, music, writing, entrepreneurship, etc.):
I'm a classically trained guitarist and own LUHV Vegan Deli at Reading Terminal Market.

If applicable to your story, substance of choice: Alcohol

Recovery/sobriety story in a nutshell:

It was Christmas time 2017. My partner had just ended our relationship, and I was devastated. My brother Gabriel noticing my pain and recommended I read "Adult Children of Alcoholics". The book starts off with a laundry list of traits, and I checked each one off. It was as if this little list was written just for me. Soon after, I started attending ACOA meetings and working the steps. It was the single greatest choice I've ever made.

Over the next few months of therapy and meetings I read over 27 books which was miracle to me considering I hadn't finished a book in ten years. It came to a point where I either recognized my narcissistic qualities and incessant need for approval, or continue a cycle of codependent and dysfunctional behavior. It was the first time that I felt truly ashamed of myself. However, it was a feeling I was not afforded the luxury of before. Because growing up I was not allowed to be anything less than perfect.

At this point in my post breakup depression, the last thing I wanted to admit was that I was an alcoholic. I convinced myself that if I practice moderation then it would prove I'm just like everyone else. I excitedly went to see my therapist and tell her about my new progress. She objectively informed me that I'm setting myself up. She then recommended the five minute rule –just to "see what happens". Basically as soon as your about to consume alcohol, just wait five minutes and see if the desire is still there. And keep waiting five minutes until the urge goes away. So I went to bar after work, waited five minutes, and ordered a seltzer with lemon and lime instead. This was the day after St Patty's day. After having felt so much shame for every drink I consumed, with the seltzer in my hands I suddenly felt power. Real power. Power over myself and no one else. I've been sober since then.

Now came the really hard part. A barrage of emotions flooded my day to day life. I started randomly crying. Just completely out of nowhere, until I realized it wasn't random. The tears were coming at times when I would have normally already been drunk. I couldn't believe how much emotion I was suppressing. So, going sober is a really bitter sweet victory. Learning how much of my life was wasted, being wasted, sucked. However, I now have boundaries, vulnerability, courage, and love. I unlocked the floodgates of pain but now it's flowing out instead of building up inside.

In a nutshell, I discovered my inner child through attending ACOA meetings. Which later taught me to love myself unconditionally. I realized, alcohol was the only thing stopping me from becoming the me I always wanted be. So it became a no brainer to quit drinking as soon as I felt the power I had inside all along. Now I'm on journey relearning how to live and love.


Top 5 Recovery / Wellness Tools *

1) Attend meetings

2) Find a therapist

3) Crying

4) Self-care

5) Seltzer with lemon and lime


Connect with Facundo + LUHV Vegan

Rebecca Szymczak

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Name: Rebecca “Bex” Szymczak

Age: 36

Location: Manhattan, NYC

Trademark epithet: Wellness Witch

Sobriety date: 4/15/2007

Creative niche: Tarot and Intuitive Healing

If applicable to your story, substance of choice: Booze

[Sobriety] story in a nutshell:

I identify as sober curious (big shout out to the leader of this movement- Ruby Warrington.) I began my journey in 2017 after struggling with severe anxiety and depression and using alcohol as way to numb the darkness. I utilized the Sober Curious method to examine my relationship with alcohol, which allowed me to experience longer and longer periods of abstinence. This combined with powerful plant medicine ceremonies and meditation have led me to a place where I no longer crave or consume alcohol.


Top 5 Recovery/Wellness Tools:

1) Tarot*

2) Exercise

3) Meditation

4) Alcohol Free Potions

5) My Dog

 
 

 
 

Connect with Bex

website: www.badassbitchestarot.com
podcast:
@badassbitchestarot
instagram:
@cardsyB

Jessica Jeboult

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Name: Jessica Jeboult

Age: 33

Location: Los Angeles, CA

Sobriety date: 1/01/2009

Creative niche:
|Writer, blogger, coach, motivational speaker

If applicable to your story, substance of choice: Cocaine

 

[Sobriety] Story in a Nutshell:

Took me over 10 years to find the value in sobriety and recovery. Once I changed my mindset to not being allowed to drink or I'm lacking and restricting myself, to everything I was gaining, that changed the game. I came from a place of abundance and I got that. I started A Sober Girls Guide, blog, podcast and recovery community for women. I am a life coach for women in recovery and motivational speaker and soon to be author!


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Top 5 Recovery/Wellness Tools

1) Diet

2) Exercise

3) Mindset

4) Connection

5) Productivity


 
 

Connect with Jessica + A Sober Girls Guide

website: www.asobergirlsguide.com
instagram: @asobergirlsguide
twitter: @asobergirlsguide
facebook: @asobergirlsguide

Marnie Rae

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Name: Marnie Rae

Age: 50

Location: Seattle, WA

Sobriety date: 4/15/2003

Creative niche: Entrepreneurship, mocktails, writing

If applicable to your story, substance of choice:
Alcohol - Grey Goose Martinis (with 3 olives) and Black Russians to be more specific. Although a bottle of wine would do in a pinch.

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Recovery/sobriety story in a nutshell:

I started drinking as a teenager.

It progressively became the focus of my life, all of my friends drank (although most weren't addicted), every event was an excuse to drink. I thought I was having fun, we even laughed about the time I drank too much and ended up in the hospital. Somehow missed that burning bush :(

Finally, after 20 years of drinking, I had my 'rock bottom' moment. I attended an elementary school fundraising auction that I had been a big part of creating, got drunk with our friends before the event, snuck in alcohol at the event, made a fool of myself trying to converse with my children's teachers, and embarrassed someone I love very much - my husband (makes me cry to write this). I knew when I went to bed that night it was going to be the last time I drank (it was).

I had a friend that didn't drink, although I didn't know why. I walked right up to her the next day in the parking lot at school after dropping our kids off and asked her point blank why she didn't drink. I look back now and I have so much love for that scared young woman that was rude and awkward and desperate.

Thank God my friend had been in recovery for a long time and could see through the awkwardness. She told me she was in recovery, I told her I needed help. She took me to my first AA meeting - I am forever grateful for her and the people in those rooms. I did NOT finish all 12 steps and I'm okay with that. I'm sober, I'm happy, I am a work in progress, I do my best to be a good human, I'm okay with it.


Top 5 Recovery/Wellness Tools:

1) Grace

2) Gratitude

3) Writing

4) Time by myself

5) Fear
Fear isn't really a 'wellness' tool but honestly, the fear of going back to that life is one of the things that keeps me sober.


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Connect with Marnie Rae

website: www.marnierae.com
instagram:
@marnieraec
facebook:
@marnieraec

Annie Grace

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Name: Annie Grace

Age: 40

Location: Evergreen, Colorado

Sobriety Date: 12/15/14

Creative niche: Writing

If applicable to your story, drug of choice:  Alcohol

Story in a nutshell:

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I was sitting at the train station deep under Heathrow airport in London. I'd been drinking vodka and O.J. before the taxi to the airport to take the edge off my awful hangover which was the result of a week of super late night drinks with colleagues. Returning to my husband and two young boys I realized that while they deserved the best of me I was, by drinking so heavily and staying out so late every work trip, giving them the worst of me. I wanted better and it hit me - that I had to find a way out of the alcohol maze.

I had tried to set rules (no wine until 5pm, or no drinking during the week) just to feel deprived and unhappy. Rules resulted in my obsessing about the next time I could drink, and instead of making alcohol less of an influencer in my life the rules made it more important, more powerful.

I knew I needed a way without rules. And in the tunnel that day I had a realization. That although I currently believed that alcohol was vital for enjoyment, relaxation and everything in between I didn't used to need alcohol to have fun or relax.

I formed this simple theory. That I consciously wanted to drink less (or nothing) the far more powerful subconscious part of my mind, the part subject to a lifetime of conditioning around the benefits of drinking, simply hadn't got the memo.

This launched me into a year's worth of research on how to undo a lifetime of subconscious conditioning around alcohol. I stopped trying to stop drinking and instead focused on learning. I created a list of every reason I drank, what all the 'benefits' were in my mind. I methodically went through every reason, looking for science-based external evidence into the validity of each. Once I'd gone through everything it was as if a fog had lifted. The beliefs that I needed alcohol to have a good time or relax just disappeared. I simply no longer wanted to drink! Talk about freedom.

I like to say that I drink as much as I want whenever I want; the truth is that I just haven’t wanted a drink in more than three years. I don't miss it, I don't think about it and I feel truly joyous and free!


Top 5 Recovery/Wellness Tools

1) Journaling

2) Eating lots of protein (to create essential amino acids!)

3) Exercise

4) Mindfulness

5) Online Communities - especially www.thisnakedmindcommunity.com


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Connect with Annie and This Naked Mind

website: www.thisnakedmind.com
website: www.thisnakedmindcommunity.com
website: www.alcoholexperiment.com
instagram: @thisnakedmind
twitter: @thisnakedmind
facebook: @thisnakedmind

Re(Pro) #64: Dawn Nickel

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The past seven years have been about peeling back the real layers of my life - and creating the community that both holds me up and allows me to give back.
— Dawn Nickel

Name: Dawn Nickel

Age: 58

Location, Victoria, British Columbia (Canada)

Recovery date*: 5/11/1989
*I have a number of dates - but the one above is truly what I consider to be my recovery date.

Creative niche:
Entrepreneur, recovery coach and advocate, writer

If applicable to your story, drug of choice: 
Not really applicable since the drugs were just what I used to cope but I was addicted to cocaine, pills marijuana and alcohol. That and my addiction to really unhealthy relationships made my young adult years a bit of a gong show.

Recovery story in a nutshell:
Started using all of the substances heavily at 15. Five overdoses by age 20. Pregnant at 20 and started to try to stop using. Went into treatment at aged 27 when my six-year-old daughter told me that I made her sick (I was trying to explain to her how sick I was that day - drug and alcohol hangover - she wasn't impressed). Smoked massive amounts of pot for two years then went back into treatment at 29. Recovery gave me a life - I went to university for 13 years culminating in a PhD in health care policy, a happy marriage to another person on recovery and eventually - a work addiction that brought me back to my knees at the age of 51. The past seven years have been about peeling back the real layers of my life - and creating the community that both holds me up and allows me to give back.


Top 5 Recovery/Wellness Tools

1) Time with family and time alone (tied for top importance)

2) Connection with other people in recovery - mostly women

3) Attempting self-care on a daily basis (sometimes I nail it - most times I don't)

4) Reading everything

5) Meditation when I remember


 
 

Connect with Dawn and She Recovers

Website: www.sherecovers.co
Instagram: @she_recovers | @recoveringdawn
Facebook: @SheRecovers

Re(Pro) #63: Tricia Lewis

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I chose to recover as hard as I drank and I haven’t looked back since.
— Tricia Lewis

Name: Tricia Lewis

Age: 37

Location: Dallas, TX

Recovery date: 11/14/2016
*turning point for substance use and/or mental health challenges

Creative niche:
Entrepreneurship has been in my blood my entire life. I'm a 6 year + business owner but my ultimate creative outlet is event planning, most recently in the form of Sober by Southwest in Austin TX.

If applicable to your story, drug of choice: Alcohol

Recovery story in a nutshell:

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I was a high- functioning, over-achieving, co-dependent alcoholic who had grown up around a very low functioning addict. Seeing what addiction "looked" like in that way made it so hard to diagnose if I had a real problem because I didn't realize how common high functioning alcoholism is or what that even resembled. I just thought I was anxious and needed to blow off steam... every night.

I worked successfully in the restaurant industry, worked incredibly hard, and partied even harder. I was a black-out drinker from the beginning and it progressively got worse into my mid 30's as I compartmentalized a double life: drinking every single night and spending my days making it look like I was totally fine. I had also become so angry, anxious, unsettled and generally unhappy and was waking up each morning pissed off that I had drank so much the night before when it was always supposed to be just 1 or 2.

After my 12 week swan song of a socially acceptable drinking binge (Read: I still went to work most days despite my daily drinking, never got a DWI, always kept up appearances, didn't take shots/ only drank expensive wine and liquor and made sure I didn't "look like an alcoholic") I experienced my first physical withdrawals that lasted 3 days. This is when I knew I couldn't negotiate my drinking with my body anymore. I listened to some recovery podcasts and heard a story I related to very deeply that convinced me to go ahead and try this sobriety thing. I dove in head first and tried AA, online sober groups, books, therapy, the 12 steps, a sponsor, you name it. I chose to recover as hard as I drank and I haven't looked back since.


Top 5 Recovery/Wellness Tools 

1) Community
(sober Facebook groups, 12 step meetings, other sober people I've met through social media)

2) Prayer/meditation

3) Podcasts

4) Actively working the 12 Steps

5) Keeping my mind open


 
 

Connect with Tricia

Recovery Happy Hour
Website: www.recoveryhappyhour.com
Instagram: @recoveryhappyhour
Twitter: @recoveryhappyhour
Facebook: @recoveryhappyhour

Sober by Southwest
Website: www.soberbysouthwest.com
Instagram: @soberbysouthwest
Facebook: @soberbysouthwest

Re(Pro) #62: Jesse Hawkins

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My goal is to ensure that one day, all social environments provides access to high-quality, non-alcoholic options on their beverage menus.
— Jesse Hawkins

Name: Jesse Hawkins

Age: 30

Location: Louisville, KY

Recovery date (turning point for substance use and/or mental health challenges): 4/16/2014

Creative niche: Entrepreneurship

If applicable to your story, drug of choice:  Alcohol

Recovery story in a nutshell:

After years of an unhealthy relationship with alcohol, I made the personal choice to become a non-drinker at the age of 25.

I can remember having my first drink as a young child, a warm beer at a Fourth of a July party. By the time I was a teenager, I became a weekend blackout [drinker]. As a child, there were certain events that drastically changed my outlook on life.  I found myself escaping, deflecting, lying. By the time I left for college I was already a full-blown alcoholic.

After years of being lost, chaos, giving up on the life I wanted to live, legal issues, loss of friends, I woke up on a cold jail cell on 4.16.14, it was my third DUI.  I was broken, tired, had no other choice but to ask for help.

Three years to the date of my last drink, after regaining back so much that I had lost, I walked away from the life I had recreated to start the Sober Voyager & The Mocktail Project. On my sobriety anniversary of 4-16-17, I sold my home, cashed out my retirement, purchased a van and started traveling all over the seeking out adventures I never thought was possible prior to my last drink. I wanted to show myself and others that you can go out and do anything and everything you want in life without a drink in your hand if you're in active recovery.

Almost two years into my adventure, and nearing five years since my last drink, I am still growing The Mocktail Project full time. A grassroots movement started to create a safer, more inclusive drinking culture. My goal is to ensure that one day, all social environments provides access to high-quality, non-alcoholic options on their beverage menus. To help normalize where a recovering, sober individual can socialize, and not feel uncomfortable with the drink they prefer in their hand. Through The Mocktail Project, I am able to provide and give back to the community that helped me regain back the life I want to live. As a non-profit, at each event we host, the money raised through our foundation goes directly back towards providing recovery tools & resources in local communities.


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L: Cocktail mixologist Eron Plevan; R: Mocktail mixologist Jesse Hawkins

Top 5 Recovery/Wellness Tools:

1) Try and accomplish one task per day

2) Set achievable goals and reward yourself once achieved.

3) Find a like-minded mentor/friend with LONG term sobriety.

4) Seek out new places that serves mocktails & great coffee!

5) Do your best to focus on today in all aspects of life.


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Re(Pro) #61: Courtney Andersen

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Helping others fuels my soul and I’m a firm believer of “women supporting women.”
— Courtney Andersen

Name: Courtney Andersen

Age: 36

Location: Detroit, Michigan

Recovery date*: 8/18/2012
[* turning point for substance use and/or mental health challenges]

Creative niche:
Writing, Blogging, Entrepreneur, Online Coaching, Helping others

If applicable to your story, drug of choice:
Alcohol and LOTS of it. I also enjoyed cocaine for about 3 years in my active addiction with alcohol.

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Recovery story in a nutshell:
I LOVED alcohol like it was my bestie for over a decade.  

My vicious cycle of addiction was spent for over ten years feeling ashamed, embarrassed, lonely, isolated and scared but I kept staying in this world. For so many years I didn't feel like I deserved any good.  Most days depending on my work schedule were spent thinking about drinking, drinking or dry heaving, laying in bed all day until I ordered pizza at 8pm when I finally stopped throwing up all the alcohol from the night before. I mean this cycle happened weekly; alcohol poisoning for sure! Of course I would say to myself every time I would dry heave that [this would] "be the last time I did shots or drank like that"...LIES!

I often found when I woke up the night before I had no clue how I got home or what happened. About ninety percent of the time my drinking would end up with me upsetting one of my friends, boyfriends or family members. I often would yell at them, pick fights and get violent like a real pig. So many missed opportunities and relationships down the drain because of my addiction. So much TIME WASTED and moments I will never get back in my life. Funny thing is since I was about 24, I knew I would have to stop drinking one day. In the pit of my soul I believe that all addicts know they have a problem of some sort, it's just a matter of "are you going to address the problem" or just “carrying on because you don't want to feel or face reality?!!”

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When I was 29 years old, I woke up the next morning from a complete shit show of an evening. I was told I lost my cat (who was not an outside cat at all) for the second time as I left my screen door wide open because I went outside to smoke in a blackout. I was also told by my then boyfriend that he was over the drinking as well; at that point we had been together for a year and a half. He had seen plenty in such a short amount of time because I will say the last couple of years of my drinking my episodes were getting worse and worse. So that day I made a pact to myself and the universe that if Fiona (my cat) was found I would give up drinking and give life a go sober as I knew I had to do since I was in my early twenties. For two days I laid around from the worst hangover in my life, like straight up death! I’m surprised I didn't need medical attention. So every few hours I would go outside shaking Fiona's treats and calling her name; finally FURPANTS came walking out slowly from under my neighbor’s deck looking terrified and leaves all over her fur and in her whiskers. I dropped to my knees like a scene from a movie and scooped her up and instantly starting crying. I felt in my whole being and on another level that sobriety was my answer; this was 1 million percent my rock bottom. I probably hit RB about 40 times previous to this but this time it was the last bottom I would face.

My life began on  August 18th, 2012! That boyfriend who said ‘enough was enough’ is now my husband. He even gave up drinking with me; he never had a problem but just got to a point in his life he could do without. Sober Life has not been easy, a lot of emotions a lot of ups and downs but it’s all worth it. I honestly wouldn't change a thing of how my life has become. My world is just better with friends, family, husband, myself and everything else. I even have my own health and fitness business and currently working on starting my own non profit/charity for women in recovery called Sober Vibes! Helping others fuels my soul and I'm a firm believer of "women supporting women." My business, Sober Vibes, the happiness and gratitude I experience now in life would never have happened if I continued to drink, I’d probably be dead if I would have kept in my active addiction and I know that in my heart and soul!  

WE DO RECOVER.


Courtney Andersen & Lori Massicot recently had me on RAW!

Top 5 Recovery/Wellness Tools:

1) Writing

2) Exercise

3) Meditation

4) Therapy/AA

5) Laughter


Re(Pro) # 60: Lucy Wilkins

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In case you’ve been living under a rock or are brand new to the scene, Brit Lucy Wilkins and her New York-based business partner Sara have made quite the (booze-free) splash in 2018 with their biz, We are in Good Company (weareingood.co). Their vision is to make space for sober by creating a world where it’s just normal to be living life substance-free. And they do that through whimsical greeting cards with messages that are simple, quirky, funny, powerful. For Dry January, Lucy and Sara are featuring a different sober rockstar every day on their Instagram feed and asking them poignant questions about why they choose sober. [I was day 14 - since January 14th was my 11.5 year anniversary <3]. Get ready for a big year with Lucy and Sara and weareingood.co!
I mean, Brad Pitt and Elton John and Natalie Portman and Blake Lively and Demi Lovato and Bradley Cooper and Dax Shepard and Zac Efron and Kristin Davis and Robert Downey Jr. and Rob Lowe and Lana Del Ray are all sober. [source:
Vanity Fair]
Trust me when I say we’re in good company!

xo,
Laura


We imagine a world where being sober is not questioned or anonymous, but out in the open for the undeniably positive choice it is.
— Lucy and Sara, weareingood.co

Name: Lucy Wilkins

Age: 43

Location: London, UK

Recovery date*: 12/18/17
[Editor’s note: Happy belated 1 year anniversary, Lucy!]
*turning point for substance use and/or mental health challenges

Creative niche: Art, design, entrepreneurship

Recovery story in a nutshell:

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I stopped drinking to support a loved one who had issues with alcohol. I've always been able to take it or leave it, know when I've had enough and call it a night. My loved one doesn't - they have no off switch. Watching them as they slowly got deeper and deeper into the clutches of alcohol was heartbreaking.

Fortunately they stopped and little by little they turned their life around. I was so impressed by the change, the huge and positive impact it had made on their life that I was inspired to give it a go too.

I can honestly say it has surprised me how much better I feel... I didn't have an 'issue' with alcohol but without it I have more patience, more time and more energy. I very rarely miss it. Sure, Christmas is harder when everyone equates festive fun with having a drink but I look at my kids and see how much fun they're having just high on life and the feeling soon dissipates.


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Top 5 Recovery/Wellness Tools

1) Books - fact or fiction or Harry Potter

2) Long walks - with or without a dog, a chance to blow away the fog

3) Time with good friends - ones who get your story and love you anyway

4) 8 hours of solid sleep - for me, there is no better reset button

5) Making stuff - spending time creating is good for the soul


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Connect with Lucy and weareingood.co

Website: www.weareingood.co
Instagram: @weareingoodco

Re(Pro) #59: Tracy Murphy

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Tracy is an inspiration to me with their LGBTteetotaler blog and community and providing a space for sober LGBTQIA folks to gather and learn from each other. As someone who very much falls under the “B,” I appreciate Tracy’s efforts to mainstream discussions on queerness and sobriety. It took me a long time to dig deep and accept myself for all of who I am, and to understand that there’s a spectrum of sexuality and gender just like there’s a spectrum of sobriety. Massive props to Tracy for their pioneering efforts.

xo,
Laura


Name: Tracy Murphy

Age: 38

Location: Providence, Rhode Island

Recovery date (turning point for substance use and/or mental health challenges): 1/28/2016

Creative niche:

I write about the intersection of queerness and sobriety for The Temper and on my own blog. I'm also committed to sharing the stories of other queer and trans folks in all kinds of recovery because it's important to me that people are able to see themselves reflected back to them in all forms and phases of recovery. (I'm always looking for contributors so, if you're interested, get my email address below and contact me!) I also love crafting and art. I block print my own wrapping paper, make my own watercolor greeting cards, do origami and I've recently gotten into needle felting. Oh! I juggle too!

And topless selfies!*

 
*Case in point!

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If applicable to your story, drug of choice: Alcohol


Recovery story in a nutshell:

I'm not an alcoholic but I was headed there.

In the summer of 2015 I stopped drinking because I was sick of thinking about it; of waking up disappointed that I hadn't been able to keep myself from drinking the night before, of promising that night would be different, of the same cycle repeating itself the next morning.

And the next. And the next.

My partner at the time had stopped drinking in the fall of 2013 so, it seemed like an option for me too. Though I stopped, I didn't ever do any of the work needed to make it stick. After my ex and I broke up that fall, I eventually started drinking again and made some bad decisions - namely, hooking up with a married lady.

My drinking escalated slightly after this and, after her husband confronted me about it in January, I knew something had to change. I took some time off of work the following week and booked a last minute trip to Hawaii; I was going to Forgetting Sarah Marshall my life.

I told myself I wasn't going to drink on this trip but, of course, on my first night there I was in a bar getting food and I saw that they had Sam Adams on tap. It was a beer I rarely had since moving to Portland, OR two years prior and one of my favorites. I only had a couple but, the next morning I felt like shit.

It was that moment where I told myself I was done. I knew I wasn't an alcoholic but I also knew that it wasn't going to take long before I got there. I texted two close friends immediately to let them know I was done for good and there began my sobriety journey.

The first three months or so were hell because I was using pure willpower to keep myself from drinking. I knew it was unsustainable but, in my search for support, I had a hard time finding something that felt like a fit for me as a queer human.

In April of 2016 I found Hip Sobriety School - a school, founded by Holly Whitaker, that teaches you how to live life without alcohol. I immediately signed up for the spring session and never looked back. Holly and HSS taught me how to begin to reclaim my humanity and it changed my life.

Sobriety has been the hardest, most rewarding thing I've ever done. I feel like a completely different person than who I was just a few years ago and I'm so fucking thankful every single day.


Top 5 Recovery/Wellness Tools

1) Walking; preferably with no music or podcasts on, as fast as possible until the tension inside of me has released.

2) Breathing; more than once I ducked in a doorway or around a corner on a busy street just to do some breathing exercises to get me through the rest of the walk home.

3) Meditation; I don't meditate as regularly as I used to but it continues to be one of my go-to tools when I'm having a hard time.

4) Positive self-talk; talking to myself out loud in the same way I talk to my closest friends sounds super cheesy but, it really helps! Speaking to myself with love made me feel loved, and isn't that all we need?

5) People; a handful of people who know me, accept me and love me no matter what. They call me on my bullshit when I'm being ridiculous and they pump me up when I'm hating on myself.


Connect with Tracy.

Website: LGBTteetotaler.com
Instagram: @murphthejerk
Email: LGBTteetotaler@gmail.com

Re(Pro) #58: Tammi Salas

Tammi Salas

In my humble opinion, this woman needs no introduction. She (and The Unruffled Podcast partner Sondra Primeaux) are changing the face of what it means to be a sober creative — and that art and recovery are not mutually exclusive, much like Adriana Marchione, our last RePro. I had the pleasure of meeting Tammi at She Recovers in NYC and then again at She Recovers in LA, when I got to take her gratitude art workshop (along with beautiful soul Shelley Richanbach, who led us in a full body gratitude scan). I am inspired by Tammi on a daily basis and my hope is twofold: 1) that I will get to spend some true, quality time with her one day and soak up her art and gratitude and beauty in person, and 2) that you, dear reader, find something in Tammi that resonates with you. It’s my true honor to present Tammi Salas to The Sobriety Collective.

xo,
Laura


Name: Tammi Salas

Age: 48

Location: Valley Ford, CA (NorCal)

Recovery date: 2/03/2015

Creative niche:
Art, writing, podcasting, late bloomer + college student majoring in art at my age!

If applicable to your story, drug of choice: 
Alcohol

Recovery story in a nutshell:


On February 3, 2015, I had my yearly physical scheduled with my general practitioner. January had been filled with a lot of contemplation about how miserable I was in my life. I had a physical bottom with booze the week after Christmas in 2014, so I spent a lot of time examining why I felt the way I did. When I was sitting in my doctor’s waiting room, filling out the general medical intake form, I paused at the question How many alcoholic drinks do you have in a week? I thought about lying, like I usually did on the form, but something inside of me wanted to tell the truth, the whole truth. I put 21 down on the intake form and handed it back to the receptionist before I could change my mind.

My doctor seemed surprised by this new information provided, but asked good questions about what I drank (bourbon) and looked up what bourbon was made of (corn) and told me all of that corn was turning to sugar and most likely contributing to a lot of my health issues (cystic acne, weight gain, etc.). She nonchalantly asked me if I would consider going on an elimination diet and removing alcohol first. Now, I love a challenge, so I immediately said yes. She reiterated that I would need to eliminate alcohol for 8 weeks and was I sure that I could do that. The bait was taken and I was all in to eliminate alcohol, gluten, sugar and dairy.

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The funny thing is that even though I thought I was telling the truth on that medical intake form, it wasn’t the whole truth. In actuality and with hindsight, I was really drinking 42 drinks a week because I drank three double manhattans every single night towards the end of my drinking. I feel like it’s important to tell you this because when I was drinking the truth was fluid and bendable. Once I got sober, I realized I had a long way to go in the truth-telling department. This would be my first start.

In sobriety, I started sharing my creative work on Instagram. I was approached to create illustrations for Holly of Hip Sobriety and we collaborated on The Mantra Project: 40 Days of Sobriety email course. I pitched myself to write a column for the Recovery Revolution about how I navigated the 12 steps of AA and it’s called Crossing The Room. I got a little braver with each project.

Last year I launched The Unruffled Podcast with my co-host, Sondra Primeaux, and we talk about where art and creativity intersect with our sobriety and recovery from alcohol. I also released a softcover book called My Daily Gratitude Practice: How I Got Started + Found My Visual Voice. I also sell original paintings from my 2018 gallery show called The Geographic. Those can be found in my shop on my website.


I no longer sell and serve wine, I sell art and serve up my perspective on recovery.
— Tammi Salas


Top 5 Recovery/Wellness Tools 

1) A solid morning routine:
Prayer, meditation, tarot, journaling + hot tea

2) Daily gratitude list
+ being part of an online gratitude circle

3) 8 hours of sleep:
No matter what.

4) 12-step meetings:
Working with a sponsor + sponsoring women

5) My phone:
To text + talk with women in recovery + listen to podcasts


 
Tammi
 

Connect with Tammi.

website: www.tammisalas.com
instagram: @tammisalas | @theunruffledpodcast
email: tammisalas@mac.com

Re(Pro) #57: Adriana Marchione

Adriana Marchione

Adriana Marchione is a force of nature. I feel endless gratitude that Mama Dawn (aka Dawn Nickel, co- founder of She Recovers) reconnected me with Adriana. Adriana’s work is that of a creative - an expressive arts therapist, a filmmaker, an artist. And this fiery and fierce woman has over 25 years of long-term recovery under her belt. She’s the perfect fit for The Sobriety Collective.

Adriana’s current project is a film that some of you may have heard of - The Creative High. It’s currently in its final stages of fundraising as the film team works round the clock to finish everything related to post-production (e.g. color correction, sound editing, etc.). The moment all the post-production work is done, the film can be ready to make its film festival debut and touch hundreds and thousands of lives as it tells the stories of working artists/creatives who have faced addiction and are now in recovery.
I believe this film has the potential to change the world. And so does Adriana.
And so do
you.

xo,
Laura

Left: Adriana; right: Laura. Here we are, being our beautiful soulful selves.

Left: Adriana; right: Laura. Here we are, being our beautiful soulful selves.


Name: Adriana Marchione

Age: 50

Location: San Francisco, CA

Recovery date: 3/01/1993

Creative niche: Filmmaker, Interdisciplinary Artist, Expressive Arts Therapist and Educator

If applicable to your story, drug of choice:  Alcohol

(Recovery) story in a nutshell:

[From Adriana’s
In Recovery magazine feature
]

When I got sober in 1993, I found it absolutely necessary to connect with people in recovery who could show me a new way of life. However, the artistic resources and mentorship necessary for me to maintain my creative life and artistic integrity were missing. I have had to find my own way in unearthing artistic expression that has supported my recovery.

I was a “pure alcoholic,” never using drugs except for periodic pot smoking, which I didn’t enjoy because of its anxiety-producing effects. Alcohol was my solace, keeping me up when I needed an emotional charge and quieting my nerves when I was uncomfortable. It was also a useful companion to my artistic life.

I began creating in high school. At college in Ohio, I became a photography/mixed media artist. I was consumed by my artwork. I felt at home in the darkroom, and I worked on creative projects late at night when I could focus and find inspiration. Alcohol accompanied me as I worked and listened to music; it also became my social lubricant at parties, art openings and at the dive bars I frequented.

I drank for seven years. Alcohol was beginning to significantly inhibit and disturb my life; it was also affecting my art. When I would drink while photographing, the quality of my work suffered.


Top 5 Recovery/Wellness Tools

1) Finding time to be quiet and listen.
Often I do this through meditation and prayer, but it also can be when dancing, drawing, writing, walking in the city or in nature.

2) Writing Fears Lists.
When I get overwhelmed, anxious or doubtful, I create a fears list to get my thoughts out on paper. This helps me let go...

3) Gratitude Lists.
One of the gifts of recovery is a changing mindset. When I can have a better perspective on my life challenges I can breathe easier and be a much easier person to be around!

4) Making Art Journals and Collage.
I use art to channel my thoughts and feelings but it also helps me to articulate my dreams and visions. I like to do this with oil pastels and found images from magazines.

5) Dancing.
I was able to find my body in recovery and this has helped me embrace movement as dance as a powerful tool for life and recovery. This might be dancing in my living room, going to an expressive dance class or dancing tango which I studied for 9 years.


 
 

Re(Pro) #56: Jocellyn Harvey

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Maybe you know her as @seltzersobriety on Instagram. That’s how I first met this Vermont-based beauty. Jocellyn is a writer, a truthteller, a connector. She and I share so much in common - about some pretty deep and private things - and I feel such a close sisterhood to her (we haven’t even talked on the phone!). One of the things I love most about Jocellyn and her IG feed is that she’s real and raw and a combo of insights into her personal life with actual Inspo. Since she submitted her profile, she started a new venture on IG: @blackwomensharing, a platform for women of color to come together, share about their lives, and find connection. Love you, J!

xo,
Laura


Name: Jocellyn Harvey

Age: 27

Location: Vermont

Recovery date: 1/10/2016

Creative niche: Writing and connecting with others

If applicable to your story, drug of choice: 
Alcohol, and the times I did drugs I made sure to do them all at once

Recovery story in a nutshell:

I drank occasionally as a teen and bad things generally happened, but I thought I'd outgrow it. Once I got my first post-college job at 22 I started being a "sophisticated" daily drinker, and that really took me to the brink. Right before I got sober I was drinking copious amounts of wine and cocktails every day, starting to develop the shakes, losing my mental capacity, and contemplating suicide. It was sad and ugly.

The day I woke and decided "yup, I cannot do this anymore" was so humbling and amazing. Now I stay sober with the help of 12-Step programs, connecting in-person and online with other sober people (especially sober women), and during the summer of 2018 I started going to therapy, which has been immensely helpful for addressing trauma.

Other things I do are more self-care related. They may seem simple, but they are hugely important: good sleep, good eating, getting a bit of exercise (I struggle with this one the most), reading, and also just relaxing on the couch with a TV show and being okay with that. Balance, right?


Top 5 Recovery/Wellness Tools

1) Twelve Step Programs

2) Therapy

3) Free & Native workshops to help with self-worth and past situations

4) Making sure I get a proper nights sleep & going on walks

5) Connecting with others & not sitting in my "ish"


 
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Connect with Jocellyn

Instagram: @seltzersobriety | @blackwomensharing
The Temper: Joceylln’s portfolio

Re(Pro) #55: Patrick Holbert

Patrick Holbert

Excited to introduce our next RePro - Mr. Patrick Holbert, Brooklyn-based stand-up comedian extraordinaire. I just love featuring creatives — artists, comedians, sewers, dancers, musicians, filmmakers, athletes, writers, makers, shakers, candlestick makers — who tap into their creativity in recovery (or in sobriety/sober curiosity, substance-free lifestyle, you name it) .
Sending gratitude to all of you <3. Happy Thanksgiving, all.

xo,
Laura


Name: Patrick Holbert

Age: 37

Location: Brooklyn, NY

Recovery date (turning point for addiction or mental illness): 8/28/2008

Creative niche: Standup Comedy

If applicable to your story, drug of choice: Alcohol, beer mostly

Recovery story in a nutshell:

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I drank for nine years like a frat boy. Loved partying, doing crazy things, life of the party, only some people thought I had a problem, others just thought I liked to have a good time. I was a "work hard / play hard" alcoholic who was able to show up to school and work and continue to excel and keep up appearances. Only those closest to me (usually girlfriends) knew there was something really horrible happening inside me. I eventually quit after my girlfriend at the time gave me the ultimatum.

First I went to therapy, where my therapist suggested I check out AA. I waited six months to do so and just kept track of my abstinence week by week with him. I didn't develop a whole lot of language or tools around sobriety, so the relationship I was trying to save actually got worse. I resented her so much for forcing me to change my whole identity. Eventually we broke up.

That's when I felt like I had a major choice to make- Would I want to live the single bachelor party-boy lifestyle or would I get more help and stay sober? I decided to check out AA and loved it from the moment I went. I related to the stories people shared, I loved how everyone looked, and I knew I could find a way to stay sober if I kept coming back.

About five years into sobriety I organized an Artists's Way workshop out of my apartment and working through that recovery-adjacent program led me to re-visiting my childhood dream of becoming a comedian. Now I perform every night of the week and get to express myself in all sorts of fun ways.

Top 5 Recovery/Wellness Tools:

1- I'm about to go to the gym right now, where I'm FINALLY feeling what everyone is talking about, how working out can improve your mood. I love it!

2- Meetings. I love AA meetings, they make me feel connected to my community and get me out of my head.

3- Listening to good meditations or motivational talks on podcasts or on Spotify or YouTube... Basically anything super cheesy like Tony Robbins, etc always gets me fired up.

4- Quality time with friends. I have a hard time making time for socializing and relaxing and just having fun, and every time I do I'm reminded that it fills me up with such positivity that I need to do it more.

5- Therapy. I see an art therapist who helps me with issues relating to being a performer (anxiety, rejection, fear, business tactics, etc) and since I began my work with her, my whole career has changed. I also go to couple's therapy with my wife (who I met in recovery) and we love doing that work together.


Connect with Patrick.

Website: www.patrickholbert.com
Podcast: Comic’s Table
Instagram: @theholbertreport
Twitter: @theholberreport

Re(Pro) #54: Ruby Warrington

Ruby Warrington

Yep, that’s TSC’s Booze-Free badass mug. Just like Ruby, you can get yours   here  .

Yep, that’s TSC’s Booze-Free badass mug. Just like Ruby, you can get yours here.

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I was introduced to the world of Ruby Warrington through my dear friend Kimber Falkinburg during our
Pink Cloud Collective retreat for sober women entrepreneurs and changemakers last year in Austin, TX. For those of you who don’t know Ruby, she is a FORCE. Ruby is the founder of The Numinous, a community where “wanted to create a place where “Céline shoes and the Celestine Prophecy” could exist in perfect harmony.” In other words, where a material girl could live in a mystical world.

For those of you who have been following along with Ruby and her journey, you’d know that she’s a big-time rah-rah-er — and I mean that in the purest, most cheerleader form of the word — of what it means to be “sober curious.”

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Read on for 1) Ruby’s definition of sober curiosity and 2) how one person can indeed change the world.


xo,
Laura


Name: Ruby Warrington

Age: 42

Location: NYC

Recovery (or quit drinking) date:
I got Sober Curious some time in the fall of 2010 ...

If applicable to your story, drug of choice: Booze

(Recovery) story in a nutshell: I don't identify as being in recovery.
Rather, the past 8 years I've committed to being Sober Curious - which means choosing to question every impulse, invitation, and expectation, to drink. Answering these questions with total integrity has led to longer and longer periods of abstinence during this time, to the point that now I no longer use booze. Period.


Creative niche: I’m a writer

Yep. She’s a writer. Order your copy of this AMAZING book     here     .

Yep. She’s a writer. Order your copy of this AMAZING book here.

Pre-order your copy of Sober Curious (out on NYE 2018)      here     .

Pre-order your copy of Sober Curious (out on NYE 2018) here.

 

Top 5 Recovery/Wellness Tools:

1) Being honest with myself and others
2) Good boundaries
3) Meditation/yoga
4) Creativity
5) Alcohol-free beer


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Ruby and her CLUB SODA NYC partner Biet Simkin - some of you may remember her from    She Recovers in       LA   !

Ruby and her CLUB SODA NYC partner Biet Simkin - some of you may remember her from She Recovers in LA!

Connect with Ruby + The Numinous

Websites: www.the-numinous.com | www.clubsoda.nyc
Instagram: @thenuminous | Twitter: @the_numinous
Books: Material Girl, Mystical World and Sober Curious

Re(Pro) #53: Megan Peters

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Get ready for lovely human and face behind Crazy Bananas: Megan Peters - photographer, writer, podcaster, mama, wife, and adorable gal about town. This woman has a well of patience, by the way - I originally was going to post her feature last year and you know, life happened. So here we are again, with updated info and another year of sobriety under her belt.

*Have you seen
@club_mental, a #mentalhealth community on Instagram run by Amy Keller Laird, former editor in chief of Women’s Health and the logo is a banana. I always think of the two of these lovely ladies now - Megan and Amy - when I think of BANANAS.


Name: Megan Peters

Age: 36

Location: Kansas City, MO

Recovery date: 4/16/2013

Creative niche: Photographer and writer (Editor’s note: and podcaster!)

If applicable to your story, drug of choice:
Alcohol (also suffered from co-dependency and perfectionism)

Recovery story in a nutshell:

In a nutshell? Well, I'll do my best!

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I was always a perfectionist, so when I found alcohol at 15-years-old, it felt like a huge relief. I had spent most of my childhood and early teenage years trying to do everything right, which was exhausting and extremely stressful. I was a straight A student, athlete, community leader and more...and I was anxious and wired all of the time. Alcohol seemed to let me relax.

But from the very first time, I always drank to get drunk. I was constantly chasing a buzz that was very difficult to hold on to (drunk enough to feel fun and let loose, but not so drunk I couldn't walk). I had many slips and falls throughout high school and college, but I explained them away because I felt that my drinking was "normal" for my age. But when I got unexpectedly pregnant at 22, my life changed drastically.

I ended up getting married to the father (and we're still happily married, almost 12 years later!) and overnight became a wife and a mother. I also worked full time to support our family, and while motherhood initially seemed to lessen the grip alcohol had on me, slowly I began finding my solace in a glass (or two...or five) of wine at night. After my second child was born, my drinking quickly escalated, although now I mostly drank alone, at night, after my family was asleep.

Happy 5 years, Megan!

Happy 5 years, Megan!

I was (again) trying to show the world that I could do it all...be the perfect mom and wife, and grow a career. I was exhausted, depressed and had zero tools to cope. After about two years of worrying about my drinking and wanting to stop, I finally quit for good more than five years ago.

The biggest thing I did was reach out to others. I found an online community and read a million sober blogs. I read memoirs and went to 12-step meetings. I did yoga. I found an addiction counselor. I found people in recovery that had what I wanted, and asked them how they got there. Then I'd try anything....at least once!

Today my recovery mostly relies on my online community, exercise, meditation and healthy eating. Tomorrow I may need something else! But I definitely try to stay in the day...one day at a time!

Top 5 Recovery Tools:

1. My online sober community/sisterhood

2. Exercise

3. Meditation

4. Reading sober memoirs and blogs

5. Sleep!


 
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Connect with Megan.

Website: www.crazybananas.com
Instagram - @crazy_bananas
Facebook - @crazybananasdotcom
Twitter - @crazybananas

Re(Pro) #52: Sherry Gaba

Sherry Gaba

Super excited about sharing Sherry with you <3. Sherry Gaba is a multipreneur and a lovely, lovely woman. I had the pleasure of finally hugging her in Los Angeles at She Recovers in LA. Sherry invited me to join her Recovery Today online telesummit of greats like Russell Brand, Lara Frazier, Veronica Valli, Leonard Buschel, and more!

 
 

Name: Sherry Gaba

Age: 59

Location: Westlake Village, CA

Recovery date (turning point for addiction or mental illness): 7/01/2011

Creative niche: Author, Psychotherapist, Telesummit Host, Magazine Editor

If applicable to your story, drug of choice: Love, relationships, Alanon

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Recovery story in a nutshell:

When I married an alcoholic in recovery, I found myself following my own recovery path even though we divorced due to his multiple relapses. I soon became the go to expert on VH1's Celebrity Rehab with Dr. Drew PInsky, author of The Law of Sobriety: Attracting Positive Energy for a Powerful Recovery which applies the law of attraction to recovery, became the editor of www.recoverytodaymagazine.com and most recently published a book on love addiction and codependency, "The Marriage and Relationship Junkie: Kicking Your Obsession".


Top 5 Recovery/Wellness Tools:

1) Boundaries
2) Support
3) Meditation
4) Prayer
5) Canoeing


 
 

Re(Pro) #51: Beverly Sartain

Beverly

Name: Beverly Sartain

Age: 39

Location: Jacksonville, FL

Recovery date (turning point for addiction or mental health concerns): 4/13/2006

Creative niche: Life coaching and entrepreneurship

If applicable, drug of choice: Poly-substance user

nutshell

Recovery story in a nutshell:
I grew up in an alcoholic and domestic violence situation and had mismanaged mental health and trauma issues. I coped with substance use, perfectionism, co-dependency and workaholism. I tried to use external things to fill a void inside of myself. This dysfunctional coping lead to a crossroads in my life where I had to make a decision to stay in victim consciousness or learn to be the creator of my own life. I knew I had tremendous potential I wasn't living. At 26, I went on a journey to discover how to 'be' with myself. I got a Master's Degree in Spiritual Psychology which gave me 22 principles and paradigms to live by. I recovered through a holistic approach of self-awareness, self-care, recovery thinking and learning new skills and tools. Connection with myself and Higher Self are my priority and allow me to have greater connection with friends, family and my community. My life is now devoted to sharing tools and techniques with other people in recovery and supporting people in using their recovery for purpose and prosperity. I've done tremendous inner work, created a life that I love and am proud of and now express myself through my own business as I lift other folks up into the greatest version of themselves so that they can have greater impact in their families, community and world.


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Beverly and I finally had the chance to connect in person at She Recovers in LA. We’ve been in digital contact for so long I can barely remember how it all started, but suffice it to say she is just luminescent. Beverly submitted her RePro over a year ago and for some reason, I never got around to it. I had also signed up for a group coaching program of hers and kept having blocks around starting the work. I assumed she judged me (assuming makes an ass out of all of us!) for leaving her hanging.

After Beverly spoke at her WE ARE THE CHANGEMAKERS panel, I jetted off to the bathroom in time to catch Tara Mohr’s keynote, planning on connecting with Beverly post-talk.

But here’s how the universe works.

Who was sitting in the chair next to mine when I dashed back but Beverly herself? She had no idea my stuff was hanging out right next to her. So we hugged, took a selfie (see above) and then I unloaded my emotional gunk. About how I felt she might have judged me for flaking.

I’ve never judged you, Laura. Ever. You are too hard on yourself. I wish you could see what I see in you.” - Beverly Sartain

Yep. So I started bawling. Had what Taryn called a “break open” - and I then decided to take my vulnerability to the stage and ask Tara Mohr a question about the inner critic and imposter syndrome and how I sometimes felt like I didn’t belong doing this work. And so all 600 women experienced me sobbing.

Can I just tell you how powerful it was? How loved and embraced I felt? Despite my fear and anxiety. It was just magic and I have Beverly to thank for helping guide me through the process of letting go of my inner shame and judgment.


Top 5 Recovery/Wellness Tools

1) Self-forgiveness statements
2) Observation Journal
3) Ideal Scenes
4) Paradigms that work for you not against you
5) Pulling Cards (affirmation, angel or intuitive oracle decks).


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